I thought I got over this.

Why am I feeling so territorial ;_;




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Youchube ; Careful with Me - Waxon

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Deep conversations with Ando

 

Been regularly having sleepovers at my friend's

and lowkey felt a bit drained after some of our interactions this week,

despite them spending majority of the time in their office working...
idk guess I do just get annoyed at people easily.

Sooo a very welcome distraction when Ando was free and I was able to talk to him.

Best 3hour call in a loooong while. 

My cheeks hurt from how much I was cracking up. 

Much needed catchup and rehash of our history 
HAHAHAHA

I totally forgot why we drifted apart for so long, 

I am so sorry Ando that I didn't realise

how cut you were for not being on my faves LOL
You my #2 CR hoe (but seriously how dare you had other friends. Coco??)
also thanks for getting/laughing at my jokes HAHA


I just can't believe out of everyone from CR

I am still in touch with Ando and Becky 💛

and now they even live in the same state haha

Was tryna help Ando out and see if Becky would catsit and 

maybe be his friend cos he introverted 👀

Felt so much better after our talk hehe

Honestly some people just recharge/energise you 


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Finally had DnM during one of our many slumber parties...

Honestly might be my only friendship where I don't feel like 
I share much about my life or get asked about it but then 

it started making sense the more I annoyed you with

questions and you reluctantly answering. 


Your lack of close friends and how blasé you were about your circle 

left me feeling so down (which annoyed you even more haha)
Me: *quietly sniffling*
You: Are you cold? 
Me: No, I'm tearing up because I can't imagine how lonely it is for you
You: 😡 I don't feel lonely! Stop crying
Me: But I just feel so sad for you


lmfao sounds so condescending but I was legit

trying to stop myself from ugly crying in your bed. 

The maths all adding up now, guess some of them clocked it right

I also finally got to ask the question that's been on my mind a lot.
Should have known that you weren't going to be very forthcoming

 with answers during the dnm sesh.

Glad you don't share the same sentiment that we've fucked up our friendship

but yeahhh
kinda not holding my breath 

because I know where I stand if things ever change... 



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When it rains it pours.

Finally got a response from ndis gig

and of course a few hours later 

the consult team CNC calls me to ask if I can cover

her holiday and the mat leave for the next 18months

😶


seriously

2 hours earlier and I wouldn't have accepted the ndis job.

Lucky it's only casual for 10 weeks

but what the heckkkk 

All these stuff ramping up and 

I have my 9 weeks of holidays booked in too

ggbb looks like I'll have to cut my leave short.

HR really gonna be hounding me down

with my 890hours of annual leave rip

my to-do list is getting longer and longer bruuuu

July was supposed to be my reset - get my shit together month


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