ChanefulCuriousity

The past month has been a mess of emotions

both conflicting and sobering. 


I've always known our time together was numbered

but knowing there was an ending 
was easier when I couldn't hear it coming. 

Now I can almost feel the countdown

like a metronome I cannot ignore.

The steady ticking beneath every moment

reminding me that even the happiest seconds 

are already becoming memories. 

I listen to the ticking 

and hate how calmly it keeps time.

Mocking me, as if it doesn't understand that I'm not ready. 

 Not ready to loosen my grip.

Not ready to watch the days disappear. 

Not ready for a last moment of which

I won't know is the last until it's already gone. 

 But I know time will keep moving

whether I am ready to let go or not. 

The clock will keep counting down,

while I stand here trying to hold tight to

the one thing I already know I cannot keep.