Youchube ; Twenty One Pilots - Car Radio

Forgot what an absolute banger this was

Miss you heaps Harry
my little bubblebuttslut

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7th date checkin
this guy loves goss as much as the next girl LOL

Also got told that I need to communicate when I don't feel like 

talking instead of ignoring messages for hours HAHAHA

whooops.

taking all my dates to my fave place in liddy, might as well get a referral reward
hahaha


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When all you see is green flags 
but you're just too comfortable being single

zzz

kinda feeling dead inside tbh

It's getting a tad exhausting

especially when quality time is his love language and 

I just need my downtime to recharge my social battery.
Can't deal when every date is 4+hoursss long

6th date in and dude's trying to hang out longer after dinner&dessert 

and there's me saying "I can't WAIIIIIT to get home" (to shower and chill)

lmaoo oops why am I like dis
 

The roster gotta keep on going tho 😂

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The group knows me too well 

lmaooo

am a noseyy ass bish

shoutoutz to ramzyyy

picking up delilah's slack hahaha


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Youchube ; Alma Desnuda - Baduquai

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ngl what you said really got to me and 

fucked with my headspace. 

Especially because I've never been told/spoken to like that before. 

Lowkey makes me sick just thinking about all you said. 

Went to Mia's to chill and kinda decompress. 

Wanted an opinion from someone who would be straight with me. 

In the midst of explaining things to her 

and admitting to my own faults

I just couldn't believe how hard I was defending you.

Mia really called me out for that. 

Showed the girl the receipts and she fucking losttttt it.  

Kinda glad debbei was not there cos she would have went mental

and told me offfff for copping all your shit.

 

Upon further reflection of what you said, I can't believe I stayed so composed

because you were on a warpath of character assassination.

I fucking cried just reading your texts out loud to Mia

and I have neverrrrr teared up in front of her.
Girl just stayed so calm and collected telling me
"no that is not who you are, he does not know you"

while I'm bawling my eyes out. 

I guess in the end you just had such high expectations from our friendship

and couldn't accept me for who I am.
Mia also pointed out from all your whining about my recent "ignoring persona"
and entitlement to my time that not once did you think maybe I was going through my own shit

and check in, actually ask what was going on.
You just wrote me off.

Bit of a red flag if two people have asked me whether I was your only friend tbh. 

Guess it's hard to be happy for others when you're not happy with yourself. 

You begrudged me for going on dates though wanted a debrief about them

and almost always continued to shit on them.
In a way, glad this all came to head NOT the way you went about it but

thank you for showing me who you are. 

I have no space for a calculative friendship in my life. 

Me telling Mia that maybe I could learn from this

 something to reflect and work on/change

and her just straight NO. You do not.
and suggesting that I should have sent you links to a therapist lmao


Anywayss this is my last post about this cos I am done.

I'm going to stay grounded with what Mia has told me 

because I need to trust someone who has known me for close to two decades

over someone who has only been in my life for a season. 

But I will do better.

 

 

 

Good riddance.

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byeeeeeee

Kinda hard catching flakkk 

from a friend about how

you don't value them and ending the 1.5years friendship.

And it's all coming outta left field because

dude's been biting on his tongue for that long about 

things that truly bothered him.


Not denying that I'm not a shitty person

who sucks ass at replying but
babes I didn't realise we were dating, the fuck. 

Get off my dick. 

How you gonna go on about how I don't look at you when we hang/

be mad that I wished you a hbd a day late when I was on night shift 💀

Yeah I'm sorry I prioritised dates before you,

I may be bad at planning but I'm no flake.

Sometimes I seriously just do not want to talk. to. anybody. after work 

but you took personal offense to that.

Also sucks that you didn't want to really hear my side, just went on full attack so whatevz

you've already made your mind up.

Sorry that you didn't feel valued.


IDKK I guess people have different expectations of friendships

but I hate haaaaate when people start calculating what I do for you vs what you do for me. 

Like foooook that. But also if the friendship meant so much would you 

not communicate all these issues to me earlier, instead of dumping it on me

all at once and be done with it.

How you gonna expect any relationship to work without letting 

the other person know shiii and giving them a chance to grow


Anywayssss that was eye opening

lowkey making me paranoid tho hahaha

Am just glad I stayed somewhat mature throughout that

and not let it get heated cos your gurl not very good at holding back

on those hurtful truthbombs.

Respond, being reactive is not productive.

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Thank you Delilah and Ritty for listening to me 😭

even though you guys were in the middle of roadtripping.
Not Delilah tryna cheer me up and start roasting

Hahaha


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You didn't really care 

what I had to say.

You just wanted to be go through

your laundry list and then shit on anything I say

marking it as an excuse.


Sometimes life just gets the better of you.

 

People are justified to their emotions,

but don't be putting words in my mouth.


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Got the ick from just one message lmaoo

💀💀

why am I like thisssss




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Youchube ; Sasha Sloan - Older

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Are we not gonna talk about how absolutely 

stunning Siobhan Cullen was in Bodkin?! 

🤌


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2024 highlights in no specific order

- Jampacked roadtrip in Aug and being spoiled rotten by my faves - Mia's patience with me even though I admittedly have been slacking hard

- Reunion and Sharing the glamping tent with Nabina at Tash's wedding. Our play arguments and cracking each other up over the silliest shit "oohhhh mmm" LMAO
- Finishing my cert. Big shoutout to Chris and Marc for being the best trainers that made the 2 x 40mins prezi less daunting. Also thankyou to that random Queenslander girl that I hit up to be my studybuddy for one day HAHAHA

- Got asked to cover higher grade duty roles at work (even tho it was max stress, praise God for these opportunities and in the same vein thank him for answering my prayers and closing the wrong doors for my swipes byeeeee ironman)

- This year's (not-so) small group was amaaaazing, will be hard to top. Absolutely loved doing life with the group and growing together. Also Lily's never ending stories and her being triggered is a whole vibe. Could sit for hours and listen to her rant.
- Trading shenanigans with my degens, still keeping the voice chat alive haha. Can't wait for our 2025 trip!

- Finding my second foodbuddy who also shares the same love language

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You guys dived a little too hard

like daaaaaym

Chill

out

pls

Got scammed hard

Checked my roster and saw that 

I'm actually covering for NUM role 

for 2 weeks AND three days 😭😭

I was counting them 10 days down bruhhhhh

Made my complaint known to the seniors and they all

laughing that I'm so upset over the extra 3 days LOOOL
but seriouuuuusly
Pls be the most uneventful boring 13 days 🙏

Meisy going through ward meeting saying that 

she's gonna send an email to Paul with a list of questions/handover

and asked if anyone wanted to add any questions to the list.

Trust me not skipping a beat and requesting to ask if he can be my reference.

Fastest group of dirties chucked by my seniors HAHAHAHA





Also singapore chill tf
but also if any of youse play MHN pls send friend code

got a bunch of freeloaders in my quest group.
No offense Emrak 😂

 

 
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Deep Conversations with Becky

Still funny LOOOL 

Love this hoe

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memecoins fried our brains

On a scale of 0 to degen 😂

guess where we are now



bobo billionaire wen tho

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Youchube ; Olivia Rodrigo - Obsessed

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Love that everyone was fighting and nominating other people

to do the A/NUM role but as soon as the arrogant RN2

expresses interest herself for the role

the seniors be like "I guesssss I can do a/num" just to block the offer

LMAOOOO

All the seniors were shocked and in disbelief when she approached

the NUM to ask if she could do the acting role 😂
But I meaaaaaaan, are we really?

If an RN2 can convince the doctors that a GBM pt was having hyperactive delirium

because of the benzos then we are all screwed when she finishes her masters. 

Loved our pharmacist's face of horror when I recounted 

how she also tried to convince the doctor the GBM pt needed dexamphetamine

for his ongoing terminal agitation. 

dexamphetamine?! lmfaoooo guuurl sit yo' ass down

So of course given my luck,  I was running late to handover

and trust that I was at the wrong place, wrong time

when I chose to sit at the CSO's desk. 

Nekminnit I hear someone saying my name,

turn to see the HOD and NUM ambushing me 

to do the A/NUM role 😭
My nightmare. After all the times I told Paul I would never do his job, ever.
Thank goodness, it's only 2 weeks. 

Not the NUM tryna sweet talk it into a full month and me side eyeing her

HAHAHA

HOD also not subtly telling me that CNS2 position opening up for consults,

did not miss the opportunity to tell her hellll nooooo. 

So traumatised from last cover hahaha

I just want to be a small potato.


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Spontaneous post-night brunch dates 

with the girls 🥰

Day drinking was not a good idea 
hahaha preeee good drinks but defs did not sit well

either from me double fisting my cocktails or surviving on 2hrs sleep

or both LOOOOOL

Can't believe Nabina going back to Americas 

in a few weeks 😭😭

 Really hoping she can make it to our Nov crawl

for one last hurrah


Also sushi date with Vicki was gooooooood

yes I just ate and drank my sleep day away 😂

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This is why we can't have nice things

Swear that curb came outta nowhere 😂😭



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Got asked to cover consults for the general/surgical wards

and hooooooo boyy.

There's only so many things you can wing 😂

not to mention the handover was pretty rubbish. 

Would sooooo much rather do consult cover for my inpatient ward.

The consultants and trainee specialists all tryna reassure me 

that I'm doing fine and they're just grateful I accepted the secondment.

Told them all "okay but never again" HAHAHAHA

Can't wait for next week to be over already 😬


Kinda funny that originally when I was newgrad and saw the

nurse doing this role I was thinking "wow so chill, so fun. I want her job"

Ohhh so naive HAHAHAHA

Welp. At least I got the exposure and now I know it's not for me.



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