ChanefulCuriousity

ngl what you said really got to me and 

fucked with my headspace. 

Especially because I've never been told/spoken to like that before. 

Lowkey makes me sick just thinking about all you said. 

Went to Mia's to chill and kinda decompress. 

Wanted an opinion from someone who would be straight with me. 

In the midst of explaining things to her 

and admitting to my own faults

I just couldn't believe how hard I was defending you.

Mia really called me out for that. 

Showed the girl the receipts and she fucking losttttt it.  

Kinda glad debbei was not there cos she would have went mental

and told me offfff for copping all your shit.

 

Upon further reflection of what you said, I can't believe I stayed so composed

because you were on a warpath of character assassination.

I fucking cried just reading your texts out loud to Mia

and I have neverrrrr teared up in front of her.
Girl just stayed so calm and collected telling me
"no that is not who you are, he does not know you"

while I'm bawling my eyes out. 

I guess in the end you just had such high expectations from our friendship

and couldn't accept me for who I am.
Mia also pointed out from all your whining about my recent "ignoring persona"
and entitlement to my time that not once did you think maybe I was going through my own shit

and check in, actually ask what was going on.
You just wrote me off.

Bit of a red flag if two people have asked me whether I was your only friend tbh. 

Guess it's hard to be happy for others when you're not happy with yourself. 

You begrudged me for going on dates though wanted a debrief about them

and almost always continued to shit on them.
In a way, glad this all came to head NOT the way you went about it but

thank you for showing me who you are. 

I have no space for a calculative friendship in my life. 

Me telling Mia that maybe I could learn from this

 something to reflect and work on/change

and her just straight NO. You do not.
and suggesting that I should have sent you links to a therapist lmao


Anywayss this is my last post about this cos I am done.

I'm going to stay grounded with what Mia has told me 

because I need to trust someone who has known me for close to two decades

over someone who has only been in my life for a season. 

But I will do better.

 

 

 

Good riddance.

♥