GUUUYTHS

I REACHED 600 total

yeye 

but my goal is 50 next year

idk if I would even be able to reach tho LOL

sadlyfe

♥

I actually thought this would only be a one time thing?

how do I passive aggressively say no

Deep conversations

I will wear you downnn

♥

Take me back to Jervis Bay and 

the mediocre weather 

wahhhhh

 4eva rewatching my snaps

♥

I'm trapped in the memory of what we were
Stuck with the reality of what we are

♥

Youchube ; Milk Carton Kids - Michigan

 

♥

Claresta shit stirring for work chat

dying HAHAHAHAHA

"hold my hoops
I won't let my weave be snatched"

You make my night (,:

 I can't believe you convinced me to 

accept a shift when it's gonna be hot as balls out.

Better be paired up tomozza

or bludgey

 ♥

 Kcrew night out and I invited a team member

I wasn't supposed to and it just went downhill from there

HAHAHAHAHAAHA GG ME.

 she tried to 'rescue' me from this guy

when I didn't want to be rescued.

Also shoutout to  Claresta for being an absolute legend

so much love for ya

♥

Makes me all warm and fuzzy

♥

Chuuuuu habibi checkout my strokes

One of the guys at the poooolz caught J's eye today and she

was all set on tryna fish him

"I flirt through strokes"  HAHAHAHA

Pretty sure the only kind of flirting going on is all in your head

LOOOL

like do you just give your number one digit at a time

when you pass each other on the laps?

crazy gal

Been months since I've been going freq but so happy

to see the usuals there

♥

Shoutout to Becky

 But friends who whispershout I'll mayonnaise/route your aluminium foil later before competitvely abruptly hanging up on skypecall is more important.
Becky can confirm HAHAHAHAAHAHA

♥

 

Got a lift from my bro since he was going for a swim

and I needed to get my ass to the city.

Asked if I could borrow the umbrella in his car since he wouldn't be using

it anyway and his response was "dw you're young. It's only rain."
What the actual freak HAHAHAHAHAHA

Who the hell says that oh my gosh

luckily I borrowed Mia's after our meet else I would've been

annoyed he managed to talk me outta borrowing his. 

 

Not saying you won't be a terrible parent,

but also, I'm not? HAHAHA

♥

Everyone's trying to pawn off their night app shift and while I feel bad

for rejecting requests no amount of money is going to convince me to do a close.

At least I'm being open about it?

No seriously guys, I'm allergic to nights. 

Adventures with Nanako

"hey lets meet up"

4 years later...

 reunited with Nanako

HAHAHAHAHAHAA

It has honestly been too long.
So glad we met up and even though we kinda

lost touch for a while but felt like no time has passed LOL

Tryna realitycheck this girl so bad though,

gotta plant your feet back on the ground.

Convinces her not to do 1 year in the americas

nekkminnit
Nanako: yeah I think I might scout out melbourne and see if I should move there

Me: yeah you'll probably have more luck finding a niche within your field

Nanako: Yeah. Do you want to move to melbourne with me?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA can't even deal

lubb ya girl

 please hmu in Jan when you're back from jap pls

♥

Trying not to send mixed signals

but also want to take you up on your offer...

r u inclusive of or...?

HAHAHAHA

Youchube - Dean Pelton peanut rap

 

Still awesome

♥

Back to the hole

 errryone be all : welcome back to work!
ugh doesn't even feel like I've ever left or had a break from this hole.

jks it's okay. 

But the tension at work LOL why does all the juicy stuff

happen when I'm not there. So keeeeeen to get caught up.

Also kinda need to be a shifthog at livo

before my reg goes through and I can't work there anymore.

These two months have been really shit

reading months. Why am I disliking all these books

 Finished my 4 weeks of prac

I am done deeeziesss. yeye

Also legit the only 2 pracs where I had no

constructive criticisms from facilitators LOL

guess paeds actually ain't bad.

Them facilitators be like : I feel like you're ready for next year

Me: No. You clearly don't know me. Am I faking it too well?

 Sooooo dreading next year tho

♥

GUIIIIISE. IT HAPPENED.

I GOT ACCEPTED INTO NEW GRAD.

WHAT. 

PRAISE THE LORD.

Months of dreading and stressing from hearing and reading all the stories from

rejected posters on forums, I am so so thankful that I got in.

Especially considering I did pre average during interview.

So I guess my selection criteria pulled me through heaps LOL

anyways by september I was pretty much all stressed out and decided to just

Trust in Him because only He knows all and what is best for me.

Again, praise the Lord for answering my prayers!

♥

 When everyone is using powerpoint for their group presentation

except for you... and your group only just decided to add in a role play 

two hours before the presentation HAHAHA

also squeezing in as many inappropriate jokes as possible. 

It's not a presentation, it's a performance.

♥

 You are seriously my worst nightmare

with how much you don't care...

How on earth are you still chillin'

when your progress is literally non-existent

pls get out

 My last lab with Thrizza on Monday </3 ):

Even though we annoy the heck outta the other

and you get on my nerves a few times too many

and your lackadaisical attitude inducing anxiety (on my part)...

we had so many grand foodventures

and laughs over random things that only we find funny

We had a good 4 years man HAHA

Started out together with ATHC1 lab and now finishing it

with you in INP lab, full circle bb.

♥

Debbei and I for every work outing/event: We're only here for the food and goss

HAHAHAHAAHAHA

 ♥

Youchube - R L I F E ; I feel like I'm going to cry

 

Love the movie dialogue mixed into it

 ♥

You're bit of a shit friend

When I hit you up after a month and legit notsure if your "I'm great actually" response is sarcastic / passive aggressive that I never got back to you of when we could meet up and chill or if reading into it too much...
also kind of annoyed me that you asked how my roadtrip was and made

jokes about me not inviting you when I kinda did,
reminding you that you said you would probably think "I could've just stayed home" 

at the end of trip and your introvert-nest...

Then you try to back your shit up and say how it's "such a small group it's like I have to talk to you guys all the time if I came"

Okay. First of all, bitch.

Second of all, I'm very butthurt.
Talking to me is not a chore );

You can't have it both ways and act like I'm an asshole friend

for not inviting you when I do try to include you as much as possible 

but you reject and then be a mole about you not being part of whatever.

Doesn't freaking work like that...

thnxkbai

I feel like I'm drifting but I can't pull myself back ashore

because I don't even know how or why the ropes are

untied in the first place.

 All I can do is watch because you don't even realise it... yet

♥

How is it that I still don't feel any more prepared or ready

 for what I'm about to walk into zzz

help

Is 600 out of reach? lel

♥

 Kinda soz I have been so inactive here but I'm focusing more on

building up my GR account

♥

Youchube - Jose Gonzales - Heartbeats

♥

It was so strange how something that felt like second nature

 at one point in time now felt so foreign.

♥

Honestly who straightens their hair naked?

Ellen and her burnt nipple

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA

♥

I said yes to doing 2 overnight shifts to help with store's move/relay

and then my manager replies with "cool u and me kiddo"

UMMMM. I thought that there would be a team working

not just us 2... I am legit gonna give my manager a headache HAHAHAHAHA

good luck
Don't kill me

♥

  I am in awe of your never ending grace and love

even though I am undeserving of it all.

♥

lyfe

Finally finished writing my selection criteria

zzz after much procrastination and distractions.

1 week behind sched GG me

5 days to edit

 but seriously spent like 2 hrs reading this forum,

which is utterly depressing and reeking of ragrets.

Trusting in Him

♥

ATTN: HARRY AND YOUR HAIRYBALLS

UM.
WHERE
IS
HARRY?


COME BACK YOU BUBBLEBUTTSLUT  3<

♥

Mum is tryna set us up so bad

and you're not really helping my case.

10/10 avoid 

pls don't make this awks

Youchube ; Meghann Plunkett - Humans

♥

Deep Conversations with mah manager

Manager: Hi it's me can u work tomorrow
Me: yeah I'm rostered tues and wednes
Me: Why? Do you want me to take the day off? Can I?
Manager: No piss off

forever trying to give my shifts away HAHAHAHA

♥

Deep Conversations with Angelica

Angelica: I just stretched and put my back out. Youth is but a distant memory at this point honestly. 

is it too soon if I start recommending you aged care homes?

♥

booooks

 You guys should know that I have already completed my

 80 books reading challenge for 2017 on goodreads and slowly crawling towards 100 mark... 

tells you a lot about how my productivity for this year is going aye.

 Bloody piss poor is what.

 ^_________^ gonna go ragret it L8

♥

Food > thirdwheel

Me: oi Ellen, got any plans after work?
Ellen: Yeah dinner with someone
Me: ooooh a date. What are you guys eating?
Ellen: No, he's a mate. Italian
Me: Where at?
Ellen: Haberfield
Me: Okay. See you there.
Ellen: HAHAHAHAHAHA YES PLEASE COME. My mate never takes a hint to leave my house


Brooo was actually tempted throughout last few hours of my shift to go even though I was mainly joking about it but then as I was catching the bus home, taps off and nekminnit

 THANKS FOR HAVING ME GUISE HAHAHAA

♥

Forever mispronouncing things and forgetting shit people tell me 

sozz

♥

Youchube ; Things that made me.

 

♥

Gud tymes with k-fam

TAPPED THE VEIN BACK IN FOR LUKE HAHAHA

Trust that the piss up turns out to be a drug up instead with the GM boys
BakedBeyond

Mon still waiting for the brownies lel while bloody

planting seeds and shitstirring since she's been transferred.
Then there's Luke asking the dogs for bus money HAHAHA
Never a boring moment with you guys.

♥

THANKS ERIC lubb u 4eva

HAHAHAHAA oh my gosh eric rang to let me know he got an email

asking for my reference and they gave like 6+ bloody hard questions 

that are in depth as heck. zzz Eric gonna be writing an essay

THANK YOU BRUDDAH ERIC, YOU DA BEST.

lubb you long timeeeeee
Seriously owe you one though


♥

Youchube ; Oh Wonder - Landslide

♥

ugh I knew I should not have told you
ragrets

10/10 decison making

I was thinking that I needed to up my saving goal for this year since it seems like I'll reach it before end of year... and literally within the next mintute
Andrea: Do you know oh wonder?
Me: Nahh
Andrea: Damn they have a concert in july
Me: *listens to one of their song for 10seconds*
Me: how much?
Andrea: 60
Me: Okay. I'll go with you


HAHAHAHAHAHA srsly 10/10 decision making or I'm just a really good mate.
Not usually my genre and all their songs about love and stuff ehhh but they sound alright.
Ended up inviting Thrizza as well HAHAHA yayyy.

♥

Praise the Lord

With new grad application approaching I have been stressing to the max
for the last few months, cos of my clinical referee- or lack thereof. 

Esp since it had to be someone of position manager/educator/facilitator.

I was banking so hard on my last placement's facilitator but that didn't work out too well.

On top of that some other things didn't go according to what I had planned either.

And this really reminded me of how naive I was to make my own plans,
instead of seeking guidance from God. 

Honestly, I'm ashamed to say for the past year or more I'd been neglecting God
so much and living my own life and my own ways.

I was stuck in a rut with constant worries over newgrad
and this seriously affected me every day (worrywart4eva).
It got to the point where I just couldn't deal anymore
and so I decided to ask and look for some guidance through the bible and praying.
I was never much of a bible-reader but somehow I found K. Krell's work on Genesis' book.

Legit going through verses and explaining/relating to real life/ prompting personal qs

and it seriously helped me get into my Quiet time. 

Through his chapter by chapter analysis, some of his quotes had really resonated with me

during my time of stress...

"It’s amazing how a personal crisis can improve one’s spiritual hearing. Often the bottom has to drop out before we’re ready to listen to God. He has to bring us to our knees so that there is no other place to look but up."

"Even though the circumstances of life may not seem to go our way, God is in control. He will orchestrate His purposes behind the scenes. We can lean on Him. He will be faithful to us."

Through my quiet time and regularly praying for guidance and trusting in Him,

it really was like a load was taken off my shoulder and I wasn't stressing as much.

and soon the answer to what I should do about my clinical ref was so obvious

but smth I didn't bother thinking about because it was just "as if" and also fear of rejection.
Anyway, I reached out to my past clinical facilitator (who were kinda flakey)
from a year ago through email
and during my procrastination stage of emailing (fear of rejection again) I was 

praying that I would trust that whatever happens would be within His plans

and that in the end it would all work out.

Yes. I worried over my email being ignored or replied too late and a bunch of other things

but I put all my trust in Him and prayed the morning I finally sent it. 

AND PRAISE THE LORD

Because when I checked after work in the afternoon there 

was an email reply sitting in my inbox. 

What I guess I'm trying to say is,
I am so grateful that someone as undeserving as me
am able to experience blessings from God.
And that despite me veering off the path, He is always there waiting with open arms
to accept me and take my troubles away and comfort me.

I'm just awed at His grace and love for me. 

♥

Adventures with Angelica ; Twenty one Pilots

Honestly a year ago I was pretty excited for the tour but was so legit over it today
Was defs not feeling them after the excessive radioplay soz

21P legit tween domination tho HAHAHAHA so embarro

kiddies all dressed up as the stressed out vid while me getting out of my jammies

was like solid effort already on my part HAHAHA. Ang and I were all "this better finish at 11.
Can't wait to go home. Not keeeen."
But I think once it started we were pretty psyched.

So glad they played most of their Regional at Best/Vessel album and addict with a pen

 so salty about merch tho

peeps wore better merch than what they were selling zzz

also, so over the red theme LOOL shoulda bought during twentytwelve tour when

logo was still good.

Ang giving me the disapproving mother look while I prank my work mate HAHAHA

buuuut anyways. no ragrets GOOOD NIGHT. 

LOCKING ANGELICA DOWN FOR MILK CARTON KIDS YEYE

KEEN FOR THEM INDIE FOLK. AND THEIR BANTER

♥

What am I even doing

zzz was planning to be productive today on my day off

morning swim, brunch with gals and then straight home to do application.

nek minnit not even home for dinner. what even. 

Gonna ragrets so hard.

And when I finally get home, I'm just planning my

next day off- confirming what time to meet peeps. ^________^ I ded

LOL call with Kim though, after I got ceebs spamming her on text.

Took us me a full half hour or more just tryna hang up
yessss. I missed you that much you dork. 

♥

werkwerkwerk

 So much drama and still 4 more weeks of this bullshit. 

Can't I just chuck a 4-week-sickie?

ugh

Shouldn't have told anyone about my non-rostered week 

RAGRETS. Now I only have 2 days free wtf

 

Wish Lyds was rostered with me ):
Just jigg your intern habibi 

At least I have Bree with me, else I would be so 

annoyed and bored for 7hrs every day. 

Our camaraderie over "Noooope, not doing that shit."

 and our increasing dropkick attitude

ain't helping much, as we're just waiting to haul ass and quit.
Congrats on getting accepted into the course though! 

So happy for you ^_________^ 

Gonna spam you if they end up giving me your section though

noooooooooooope

never signed up for this full timer hours bullshit.
Getting taxed heaps
nothnx

♥

Adventures with Kcrew

So traumatised from yesterday zzz

Cannot understand people sometimes. 

Didn't even cool down at night

errrbody be sweating their balls off at Ben's.

Kcrew went to Coles mid party for AC and iceblock HAHAHA

Ended up visiting the k-night staff and buying shit for beerpong

Marcus always be having too much fun on his shift HAHAHA

Adam tho

eating on the job HAHAHAHA

 ♥

Deep conversations with TashGotNoCash

um I just found this when you said you didn-

WELL, we do nowwww ;)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA Whenever with

Tash we always manage to come up with the quirkiest things

ALSO. DEFROST YOUR DAMN CHICKEN ALREADY

♥

Deep conversations with Becky

Starting the CNY with a good ol’ chat with Becky and her mum

Can't believe we've breezed through 5 years already ya hoe <3
and sticking through with our long ass calls, dissing each other 30 +32

and of course...

Me: are you getting sleepy yet?

Becky: yeah I kind of am

Me: so….. is it gonna be the usual again?

Becky: the usual what?

Me: The usuaaaaaaaaal

Becky: WHAT

Me: You know the usual…

Becky: wha---NO. DON’T YOU DARE

Me: So. The usual it is!

Becky: TT NOOOOO- 

Me: YESS.
Becky: I'm gonna-

Me: MAYONNAISE! *HANGS UP*

Also just for shits and giggles- a back log of all the times
we I hung up with accent-mispronounciations cos it's still hilarious

---

---



Me: Don't forget to wrap it in aluminium foil before caramelising it in mayonnaise *hangs up*

-----


Me: Hey, guess what?
Becky: what?
Me: route ya later!

♥

Deep conversations with Ben

Ben keeps changing the date for his 21st and now

he has one up himself and dedicated two weekends for it HAHA

Seriously notsure which is the official big one

not subtle at all HAHAHAHA

♥

Party starts in 15 mins and I still haven't decided if I'm going 

 or gonna flake out last minute with lydia... zzzz

This is who I have become.
Just let me be one with my bed

♥