The moment she walked through the doors and announced that it was not what we all assumed it to be was like a massive weight being lift off my shoulders despite how cliche it sounds. i cannot be anymore thankful to God who has once again  listened and answered our prayers!!!!!

Numb...

Despite what I've just been told it's all I'm feeling right now...   n.u.m.b
I don't know what the heck is wrong with me when something so serious like this has happened.
Now I really want to bail on the Road Trip. I don't think I can go knowing that there's something wrong. It'll just be on my mind the whole time and then it'll just be pretty pointless going.
scratch that.
None of that even matters anymore....................................

I don't even know what to do...
I have not teared up this much since the time I randomly started blubbering to Chris. P last year during the lunch meeting.
shit.
Why this speedhump now? Why, now.

WHY EVER.

I need Andrew to be with me now
2 more hours until he's finished with work ):
WHY DID YOU HAVE TO MOVE OUT. SHIT.
I need to talk to you.
I neeeed you so baaaaaaaad.
):

‎"The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly." - F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby.

Less than three.

That little brat and I had another fight, Avery texts back saying

I fully support your ______  fetish, despite whatever your brother says. You be proud. Let your freak flag fly.

LOL. I love you so much Avery
I can't wait to see you.

♥

Best ss

I swear, I'm not a MissyHiggins-obsessed fan!











... okay. Maybe just a little more than necessary.



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Brenda DECLARES WAR

LOL
As much as I love you which I do oh very much, Brenda. You kill me.
From primary school onto high school our maths and PASS classes have brought us closer than ever. I got to say, you were the one who provoked the groping game which had inevitably spread to nearly half the people in our year group. Oh joyous days of grabbing people's ass and boobs with no reluctance or shame.
I love the weird sort of relationship we have and our 'pose'. Oh yeah. Loving that too.
However, I beg of you to spare me when choosing your next DP on FB.
Even with my absence, the number of mutual friends makes it the least flattering when you choose a pic because of whatever douchey-ass face I'm pulling.

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Been too lazy to even write new entries.
So I guess this one goes out to MikeNikers for forcing this outta me LOL
Dad's been getting on my back about the number of days I'm actually home whereas Danny is just glad that I'm not at schoolies doing drugs and getting arrested on the news and stuff. HAHA.
Guess I'm gonna have to start asking my manager to roster me up for some shifts to appease him.
Last Sunday he got a bit nutty and asked if I wanted to quit for a job closer to his workplace. LOL HELLNO I DO NOT.

Updating my laptop has stuffed up the time & date that when I was typing my reply back to Diane I almost shat my pants thinking it was Wednesday and that I had forgotten to go to my lunch date with Ang & Paul. For realsies. I had a mini-panic attack.

The past few days have really been catchups with girlies from SGHS and as much as I love hanging with you guise, the next outing that I have with a girl pleaaaaaaase do not spend majority of the time bitching about people. A short 3 minutes is fine but don't expect me to contribute. I am absolutely and utterly sick of hearing shit about this or that person. It's really not that fun anymore and I actually have better things to talk about...

Also. SOMEONE. Recommend me some books! ): I need to start a new reading list asap for the long rideeee.

For those anticipating for the announcement- December and all will be revealed or made somewhat official (:

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Awkward thing of bumping into one of your ex at Conor's formal.
ASDFSFNKNKASJFKDGH didn't know he changed schools.
Full cringing in my spot when we kept making eye contact.
Oh wells.
The DJ was like 124 something. They needed a better one, too bad he came with the venue.
Pretty funny how I spent half the night replying to Adrian who was at St George Girls' formal.
This one got me laughing so bad I was in stitches....

Chanelle:
we can make requests to the DJ!
Adrian:
LOL oh god
Chanelle:
What.
Adrian:
MISSY HIGGINS.
Chanelle:
ROFL
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
I WASN'T EVEN THINKING ABOUT IT!



Swam at Amanda's till I got too wrinkly. Hmmyeah. CHLORINE <3  How I've missed you so much.
Them Friday Afternoon's at Hurstville Aquatic centre. Looking back I feel so stupid for quitting... those 10 years of training down the draaaain.


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Tuesday night can go die...

 oofft. That tie hahahaha




LOL
FAAAAAAAAAAARK.
People who change their plans last minute... stop. please. You're doing my head in.
 I'm so not bothered for this formal .___. why did I say yes to it.
Freaking give me a headache to figure out how I'm gonna get to and back.
Guess I'll be doing a sleepover at Amanda's again cos it'll be too dog to ask whichever parent to drive me home at midnight-ish or later. SAJFJDGHKAHEG I really hate crashing at people's place with who I'm not really close to... hope we don't wake her parents up or anything. GAH.
I'm really ceeeebs for it right now. No kidding. Can't even be bothered with makeup or anything.
Eyeliner and mascara and out I go. LOL. Sorry Conor.

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what am I going to do zaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh
At this moment I am really glad that I don't have fb HAHAHAHAHAHA
Don't need to face the photos afterwards. Stuff that shit haha.

At least this time I'm not sick.... hurrrrrrrrr
Now that I look back my formal was pretty average. It's a wonder how Adrian put up with me that evening with all the sniffing and coughing hahaha yuck. Oh wells. He looked like he was having the time of his life when singing on stage HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA SING FOR ME, BABE ROFL. LOVE YOU TOO. 

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So I guess I deserve all the shit you guise are gonna throw at me but it really isn't my fault that all 3 events clashed on the same day or the fact that I promised to go to all of them (thinking they were on different days) and then forgot about it....
wait.
It is my fault LOL. I know. I'll take what you'll give.

BUT. It wasn't because I was too busy lazying around doing jack.
Well. I can't really say what I've been up to in the past few hours/days but I'll go with the old saying that a picture is worth a thousand words... cos it really is.


So much win Conor hahahahahaha mmmmmm ;)
♥

My little Conor all grown up

LOL
Freaking st Pat's social pre-formal event robbed my whole evening ):
At least I got to spend time with this lovely fella.

Stupid looking autistic private school boy with his much limited dining etiquette. Shitballs. He's one sexy looking freak of nature. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

 ♥

That wasn't awkward at all...

Not the best night when you keep bumping into someone you haven't seen for a while.
Freaking back at the crossroads.
Went through my old albums and swear, I can make a collage of "a year ago from today" of us two.
It feels like we're constantly walking in and out of each other's life.
Back in primary, then yr 8 and 11 and now this.
It was nice seeing him but wow so little has changed.
We laughed about how wrong everyone's assumption was during last year, but how far off were they actually?











Oh yeah. I FOUND THAT GUY FROM THE BAND. Daym.

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Mother Tongues on Thursdays

Spent the day chatting with Becky's mummy. LOL
She's so cute, explaining things to me and all. So easygoing and lax.
My Canto's gonna improve in no time (jokes). Well hopefully ^____________________________^
Them two made me laugh so much today my jaw is so sore.
Yeah. THAT much.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Oh man. Goood times :)



This chick still in her school uniform LOL. TAKE IT OFF ;)

Mel Finishes hsc at 12.30, starts cleaning at 1.30... preparing for her life as a housemaid.
 #failedhsc #uneducated #domesticatedwoman #shouldn'thavebotheredstudying

LOL. 

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Hardcore Pawn

WHO'S RICHARD?!
I DON'T KNOW.
but why did the boss just let him go?! WHAT WHY.
HE'S BEEN WORKING THERE FOR 25 YEARS! WHAT
WHYYY. damn this boss' is moody.
LOL.

So much more intense than dramas.



Too gangster to my likings. When's American Pickers on? I want to see that tall and chubby guy. At least they offer generous money for the goods

♥

City ft. Mia.

BIGGEST THANKYOU TO MIA for helping me choose the stuff
cos y'know we're in lurve together 5everrr.
<3 BEBE. I'll never leave you. LOL

We came back looking like we had a retail therapy. HAHAHAHA
So.
I found my dress and shoes for St Pat's formal :D YESSSS.
Got Cocco's present (scarf for old ladies says our new BFF from Myers) LOL

Went JB-Hifi near the phoenix skyline place.
Security guy: Yeah. We don't sell DVDs here.
Our reaction:
Oh. Okay hahaha thanks.

Our reaction in our head:
WHAT. THIS IS JB-HIFI RIGHT? DON'T SELL DVDS WHAT THE HECK. LOL

Went back to the JB-HIFI at Townhall under Kinokuniya
Couldn't find many things.
Not even my Seasons 3 Community DVD ):
But I saw SPN ones. Haha.
Hmmmmm. Still tossing up on whether I should continue getting them...
Only have s1-5... s6&7 was pretty shit (kinda)

Found Missy Higgins' album though they weren't the hard cover albums
only Sound of White was ):
Ol' Razzle Dazzle was like paper kind of ones... hmm. Though it was only 9 each so. Next time maybs.

Went Galaxy world the one in Market city. Haven't been there for ages cos now it's replaced by the hot dollar shop and it moved to where the cinema used to be. It's kinda all adult games now anyways. SAH SAD. Though we had our fun. LOL DAMN THAT PANDA CHARACTER K.O-ed us last round ):


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CAN'T BELIEVE RHIANNE TOLD ME ABOUT IT ):
I'm still sulking over it. Kind of...
It just keeps coming back in my head.
Freaking cry me a river.
Need to keep myself occupied from thinking about it.
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
WHY. ASJKFAKFKAHGKHDG ): Freaking why did/didn't you do that?!
I guess this one best fits:  Missy Higgins - Steer


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That curry guy had the biggest adam's apple... he could've easily slapped me or knocked me out with it (if he heard me)

Dat legal study sesh last Friday LOL
If I wasn't Chinese I would've been bashed ages ago, or so she told me. 


- my brother looking like a dag, shirt untucked, buttons undone and tie loose. his excuse is that it's Monday morning. Head down in shame
- this girl thought the great depression was referring to people's deep emotions. Her and her useless life.
- "tag me on Facebook so it looks like I do stuff" lol what a dickhead
- If we agree to meet at 9 then you should be here at 8:59.


Went libs with DM
HAHAHAHA cos the others didn't bother rocking up.
watched people stress for chem while we chilled with our Society notes.
We got through Pop culture. Yehyers.
Now Equality and Conflict theory to GoOOoooOOOooOO
So glad my PIP is worth 40% external mark.
LET THAT SINK INNNNNNN. Practically sat for my HSC throughout the year while I was working on it.
Am actually quite pleased with myself and very proud of the end product. Too bad I won't see that baby everrrrrr. Unless it makes it into the state library section LOL. highhopes.
 

LAST DAY SUCKERS!
(:
Okay.
I'm gonna go chuck a dump and showerererererer now.
LOL. too much?
Sorry.
Adreeeeee made me say that.


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Tuesday arvo. We're back to normal routine. Swear.

The things I do for a mate's formal....

♥ 

Late night with Mia.

Chane says:

LOL he's putting pressure on you now

right before the last exam HAHAHAHAHAHA

Mia says:
LOL
yeahhhhhhhhhh........
Chane says:
BEBE. Just tell him about your golddigging plan as back up. Won't fail. $1m guaranteed and the boob surgery
Mia says:
LMFAO

AAHAHAHAHAH

yeah i said i can meet rich business men as a stewardess

Chane says:

Become a housewife

Live the high life

hire me as the maid
we can do jackshit all day ^_______________________^

Mia says:
high tea

shopping at chanel

LOL watch tvb

ahahahahahah

bake cake

Chane says:
YOU? In the KITCHEN?
PLEASE.
Mia says:

=="

slut

i will learn when i have time !!

Chane says:
HEHEHE.
and moneeeey
Mia says:
$$$$$$$
Chane says:
You need the money just in case your burn down the kitchen
Mia says:

LMFAO AHAHAHAHAHAH

UR SO FUCKED UP

Chane says:
LOL
Mia says:
 PLEASE... STOP UNDER-ESTIMATING ME
Chane says:
Anyways. We need to go Myers and DJ for Cocco's present on wednes (:
Mia says:
doesnt she like jewellery?
Chane says:
She likes branded stuff. That's all we know
With her whole collection of channel. That's all I know.
I also need a new Lancome Miracle (: 
Mia says:
that materialistic whore
Chane says:
LOL bitch that makes the two of youse.
Mia says:
ahahahahah
Chane says:
The class is thinking of choosing a scarf
Mia says:
scarf ? are u crazy
summer is approaching idiots
Chane says:

those silk scarf

HAVE YOU LIVED IN AUSTRALIA LATELY?

We don't have summer

Well if not scarf then you can help choose something else with the budget of $100 since we only have 6 ppl

Mia says:
LMAO, well just looking at the fashion world perspective, a scarf is not an accessory for summer

r u in charge?

Chane says:
Apparently cos nobody else is botheredzzz for life
Mia says:

*sigh

y

y did u have to say YES?

i h8 buying presents

unless its for my dad

Chane says:
BEBE. Just think it as shopping for yourself but at the end of the day with somebody elses money and somebody elses present. Same shit ^________________^
Mia says:
LMFAO NO. THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE
Chane says:
C'mon baby. Do it for your for me. I'll shout you lunch on the day and maybs a movie date afterwards if I find the dress for the formal <3
Mia says:
kk.

*sigh

does she like make up?

LOL

i'm sure she does

just look at her face

Chane says:
ROFL
Mia says:
LOLOL
lets just get her make up
Chane says:
o.o
Mia says:

she might think that youre implying something

lets get her a $100 membership deal for online dating

Chane says:
getting a present for someone in the late 30s is hard....
LOL bebe she's married.


♥

What they don't know won't kill them

The moles who shouted out Ollie during my final music performance, you are the biggest flops cos my mum just saw the video and asked what it meant.... she's gonna murder me if she finds out, and I will bring you all down with me.
And for the few who are still trying to figure why the nickname's Ollie.
HAHAHAHA. It's really not that hard to piece the puzzle together.
Well. DA BOIZ are planning another outing soon and invited me to get a few good snaps and test mah skillz 0ut. LOL jokes.
I am absolutely stoked; however, my parents will be absolutely livid if they knew. Ignorance is bliss, I guess.
So definitely can't come away with scrapes and bruises. T___________________T
Fingers
Crossed.
That is if I walk away with all 10 afterwards.
LOL. Good jokes Seb. Good joke  :/



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Pants off Fridays

Haven't seen this fella in a whileeeeeeeeeeeee.
LOL. Oscar getting his soft side on.


♥

Thursdays.

Honestly, the next person who asks me for relationship advice will be charged ^_______________________________^
Freaking. No more free love therapy. I think I just found my new career path. LOL.

Sometimes you guise don't realise how trivial your problems are until you hear it from an objective standpoint.
But majority of the time your girlfriends are just stubborn fools that need realitychecks or a slap across the face, which is a free service I am happy to offer HAHAHAHAHA jokes >_____> Don't want to get myself involved with psychotics. ROFL. I kid. I kid...
half-way o_o



LOL Dan came home with this

HAHAHAHAHAHA.
What a cutieeee.
I LUBB YOU TOO.


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