Something of the past - Kbear

If you know me. You'd know I have a lot of nicks... hahaha. Though I think my current (maybe all-time?) favourite would be 'Chay'. HAHAHAHA.
I'm actually pretty fond of it myself. Maybe cos he was the only who thought of it. It's a somewhat recent one but yeah...
It kinda brings back memory of how from strangers we got really close and now... not so much but still kind of. Something's changed but still... it was the best 6 months ever. I was crushing hard on you big time LOL.
It's dropped to probably a 10% rate cos that'll be awks if I still do............
um. You were really special to me. I don't know if you realised that but yeah... in a way you were my mechanism to get over the past. Nobody has made me laugh as much as you. You always managed to catch me off guard with your comments, some were just HE DID NOT JUST SAY THAT ones hahahahaha cos they were so outrageous ;)
I'm still fond of you, but it's definitely died down now.
You're too busy for me LOL. Kinda true. Oh well. We had a great run. Woudn't have asked for anything else (Y). In a way I feel like you played a great contribution during my final year. You spoke so much wisdom to me which I'll hold dear. Also respect you since you were one of those guys who took 'no' for an answer though made me feel guilty just to tease hahahaha.
You didn't pressure me to do anything I didn't want to, as most others would even though its something trivial but you just understood.
I know that nobody would be able to take your position cos boyyy, you set the bar way too high. I'm so glad we became good mates, instead of anything further. (:


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Oh yeah, forgot to mention....

I still haven't heard from Diane yet..
sadface.
what's happening. Idontknowanymore.


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Short vent

Okay. Seriously.

I don't get it....

I legit bludge to a bare minimum. I BLUDGE EVEN LESS NOW THAN I DID WHEN I WAS DOING THE HSC.. k.
So I don't get why I still manage to be so caught up with all the shizzz.
Honestly, there has not been ONE day where I've done no uni-related work at all.

Legit.

Cry me an ocean, please.

I don't get life anymore. 

Betting its my units that's screwing me over.... everyone else seems to be so relaxed.

and to top it off dat annoying prick walked pass me while I was full busy in my readings trying to get the research done for CUL and she was all "it's first year, not even that stressful."
Dude. please shutup. You went through it and finished the whole experience. Let me have my turn, you're not the center of my world and as far as I'm concerned, nobody else's for that matter. so stop.

Oh yeah, Mia's birthday. LOL.

Ugh.

You may/june babies fill up my schedule.

Though I'm really not joking when I said I'm going all out when semester break comes. Like serious. WE ONNN LIKE DONKEY KONG. No half-ass events.
Also, the pub still has a vacant position.... notsureifIshouldtakeupontheoffer.

Dad will be super pissed if I do. So that's pretty tempting...

Also. Not that it's something that I've ONLY come to realise, but yeah.

Shit. Time's changed. We don't even whekhkhahgssd yeah. 

It was really my fault but I'm  not really regretting it THAT much.

:$

okay. No more. Back to edpsych. 

Lats.



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HALFWAY

Finished my CUL essay and submitted with only 8% similarity on turnitin.
YAY. PRAISE THE LORD.



Here's the new link...
http://ask.fm/ChanefulCuriousity

took me a while to convert the stuff from the old one...


Educ essay tmr. Not looking forward to starting that....
sigh

What's wrong with me?

HAHAHA. I swear, every time I feel an urge to blog 90% is due to the fact that I have an essay due sooon, verrrry soooooooon. T_________T angagkljagklajlg I'm like 1/4 done. I seriously hope that I don't go over the word limit. PJAJGHG PLEAAAAAAAAAAASEEEEEE.
SIGH. I still have three more tasks to go.... this never ending doom.
I laughed inwardly when the exchange students from Sweden and US were like "this is so different from home, it was so laid back and only an essay every now and then". SIGH SIGH SIGH.
Envy.


On a trivial note, I'm making a new ask cos my old one crashed with a million of the same question.


But the question remains. WHAT AM I DOING HERE?

k. laters.

Your disappearing act is getting harder to bear - MH

I don't know what happened to D...
Is she gonna pull another disappearing act on me again .____.
what's happening.
I don't know.

I keep having that feeling that you're not gonna come back and that this time, for the first time, I would probably not even try to chase after you.

Feels pathetic I'd still semi-mope about it or the fact that I regret telling you about it.  sigh.

Maybe it's just time we, or rather I let it go. I should probably have done so 5 years ago instead of being the selfish prick and asking more from you.

Sorry.

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Random hellos

HEYYYYY GUIZZZZEEEEE ^_______________^
I just felt like randomly updating this for no reason even though  I should be really working but... yeah.

Lez get to some rambling...
This week/so far this month:
 I found out that I after meeting someone for some time I always manage to find their flaws... 60% of people anyway. Once these flaws become evident to me, it just feels like everything changes. I just can't look at the person in the same way.
Today, for example, I found one someone's- who I've known only for a month and a half but yeah... dude, you're so freaking weird. You creep me out a bit now even though we have great chats. Ever heard of less is more? Yeah... don't tell me unnecessary information, I really don't need to know that you spent the day before yday at the film club to see this movie that was like a "gay porno" with boobs and everything galore......... and then you had to go and repeat that to my other friend when she came to wait with us. -_______- could it get any MORE awkward? LOL She was just nodding her head with expected responses of "okay...."



-I found out that Esmir is Bosnian. That's so freaking coool, like his name. HAHAHA <3
He's such a social butterfly ^____^ He looks younger than he is too... kinda. LOL.
Super easy to chill with and study, no awkward topics. He's so ambitious too. Even though he already has a degree in accounting and worked as an accountant he decided to go back to studying and do law.  Superrr impressed. And he was full pulling all nighterz during past weeks- the amount of sleep he had overall in a week was countable within one hand. However, when we went to have a meeting with the convenor he was able to full crap out all these arguments and reforms/jargons... hotdaym I was gobsmacked. I was struggling to keep up with the convenor when he asked me dotdotdot.
But yeah, kinda disappointed I won't be seeing him again after this unit ):
Waaaaaaaaaaah. LOL AND TODAY. We were discussing about siblings outside of class, and him being the oldest likes to gang up with his brother to frustrate his younger sister -__- HAHAHAHAHAHA He was all: y'know there's an extent and then you stop before she starts hitting you, so you got to stop right before you hit the limit.
LOL I was laughing so hard that he knew the 'limit', my reply was just You Little Shit inbetween my laugh. Good times.

Only in my Cultural class tut will you hear people getting away with "bitchez got preggerz" in the class discussion. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA


Love how Avery snapchatted saying "happy break" LOL don't drown in jealousea! <3 Started going back and forth sending random facial expressions haha. I miss you so much <3 Beers, Babe, Bed. NOW. hehehehe.


Yes, Adrian, I FREAKING like you back, too.

He said I can't make anymore creepy posts with his pics. wah.

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Ext. Transfer

FINALLY got a reply from my email I sent out a few weeks ago concerning external transfer to a completely different course.
Apparently eligibility is based...

on your current study and your ATAR as a second reference.  You are expected to have Credit average (marks between 65 to 74) in your current study to be able to transfer to UTS.

I know you guise probably think its hell easy of getting an average of 65-74 BUT CRAP SON, my educ lecturer said for one upcoming assessments that 50% get passes and only 15-20% get Distinctions and HD. So.... shitting bricks.
That means I absolutely cannot, cannnnnnn notttttttttttttt get any passes- Credits, D & HDs only.
Moreover, I really don't know how they'll average up all my marks from 8 units to get that final mark.... It most likely won't take into account of the overall performance of others so that's a pretty shit indication since it has no SD. GAHHHHHH.
Kill me.
I always make the worse decisions.
WHY
WHY
WHY
SIGH.

Unnecessary musing

I think I just reached a point where I just can't give anymore. I'm too tired to care.
If you're in then stay in, if not then out the door you go. Don't keep both legs on each side.
Honestly I've tried to reach out to you during the past week.Though it feels that my effort is just never enough. We have terrible timing.
That's why I'm letting it go. I don't need any extra trouble in my life. I really don't. So stop.
Whatever we had was special but... what was once cannot be again.
We constantly desire to chase after the things we cannot have. Yet when we attain them we're already chasing after something else.


Starting from today, it'll no longer be a facade.
I'm not going to check to see how you're doing. Enough is enough.
the
line
is
drawn.

Easter break

Actually had a lot to type about before I got onto the draft page haha
ughhh.
So tired...
Spent last night out with cousins and then came home and proofread Sarah's law essay since I promised to and it was such a big weighting too. Had so much distractions on at the same time it took till midnight to finish it -___-
Then I just ended staying up for another 3/4 hours to talk to Nick since I didn't see him this Easter break LOL
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA.
One of the rare times that I'd bond with someone so quickly and feel comfortable talking just about anything. Even ended up getting an invite to his 30th birthday dinner ):
So sad that it was on a Saturday and 2 days before our educ essay due date. LOL.
Not willing to sacrifice some time and grades <3
Anyways, it would have been a bit awks since its just his family and mates. Swear, I would've been the youngest of the bunch there .__. hahaha. A loner at that too since we have no mutual friends. But damn.
I would've wanted to go if it wasn't for the assessment!!! GAAAAAH.
Oh wells, grab lunch with him during our semester break :D YAY
It was pretty swell, we weren't even tired till 4am when the convo died down.
HEHE Can't wait to see him this Friday :)


Adrian drove us out to hurstv. this morning and they were doing breath test right after the red highlight and people exited the highway to M5 and M3 to avoid the police HAHAHAHAHA SO FREAKING SUSS. Adrian wanted to volunteer to get his breath tested...
Don't think police would bother with people who actually volunteer babe HAHAHA