Been absolutely blessed and showered with love in August

🥰🥰

Some of the highlights (mostly food dumps HAHA)

Shoutoutzz to Thrizza for getting me tix hehe

Can't believe we trekked to Melb for that one restaurant HAHA

Shopped like craaaazy tho ggs

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Youchube ; Fiji Blue - Waves

 

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Got invited to see the grandprix 

in melb next March

but my first thought was "not sure if I'm gonna still be 

in your life next March" 💀💀


After a long dnm with my cousin on Sunday,

I planned to have the chat the same night

but then again it was green flags galore ggs

guess I'm gonna save the convo for the weekend staycation trip

how fun

no way to escape lmaooo


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 2k in a day

chill out pls 

I'm glad we were able to say goodbye

before the option was ripped from us.

Our pieces had stopped fitting long before our goodbyes,
the edges frayed from us-or me trying so hard to hold on.
Clinging tight to the buoy ring that was
stupidly secured to the sinking ship, our past.

Some days I'm resentful about the space 

you took up in my life. 

The extra baggage I need to check-in

and sometimes even caught off guard about the ones

I hadn't declared- unaware of its existence, 

until I'm forced to face it.  


Other days I feel numb when I think about 

you,

us,

the past.



♥

Ritty's friend self-invited himself to the trip

HAHAHAHAHA

It's like Anton all over again. 

Duuude better start doing arm's day cos

 he's gonna be carrying my luggage fosho 

👀

♥

I'm homesick for a time that no longer exists




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Youchube ; The XX - Sunset

what a throwback



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Still having doubts about us

 

but whenever I feel like I wanna end things,

 I see green flags 💀 

It's not supposed to be this hard right

I said "peak comedy" 

and the universe did me one better.

Recounted the date to like 5 other people 

and they just be laughing their asses off.

Even managed to shock Tanya into laughing 

😭😭
Swear I have the worst luck

but I guess I'm glad you guys are all having a gas about it



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Not the friend who crashed out on me a few months ago

asking me if I'm still mad 

and if we could get coffee sometime


BISHHHHHHH

can't believe you ruined our friendship 

just for you to do a 180

like that wasn't gonna be a dealbreaker

guys are weird

Also fomo for you cos you missed out on peak comedy 

that was my last few months ggs

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Yo

guyssss chill pls
 

You scrolling too far back 💀

and who the fooooook is on an ipod touch.

Out yourselves now!

We felt like a lifetime ago.

It's getting harder to remember things. 

Our past is all but a blur.

Echoes of ghosts.



Maybe that's why I still find it hard to talk about us...



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DnM with the aussie korner group chat

made me realise I really be the guy in this relationship LOL

ramz and I be like give ussss spaaaace

workmates already making fun of me and 

my "once a week meetup only" limit


And then there's delilah all "I want to live in his skin"
lmfaooooo


I cannot with her


Also not me telling him that I'm so excited

for his upcoming phils trip and asking why he didn't

go for longer 💀


♥

She got me goooood

HAHAHAHA

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I hate change

Amy was right that me going part time 

started a domino effect of people also talking about leaving


Not Tash telling me that I inspired her to finally move
😭😭
wasn't even my intention bihhhh

stayyyyyy pls



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Youchube ; Jamie Miller - It Is What It Is

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"Murder is bad and so is badly concealed deep breaths"


HAHAHAHA

honestly

forgot how funny Thomas train guy was


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Sooooo sick of the new clowns at work.

Honestly, culture been taking a nosedive recently.

As great as the new NUM is, she just been fumbling with the hires

and being defensive when ppl complain about her hires.

Miss Paul so muchhhh 😭 at least he would have taken

our complaints more seriously. 

Not Tash reenacting how he would write down all our complaints

in dot points and then confront the person by reading out his compiled list 

HAHAHAHAHA


Next roster so overstaffed and I ceeeebs 

using my annual leave anymore to save ppl from getting deployed.

Especially when a few others are just holding and using their leave when they want.
yeah nahhh not wasting my leave for those selfish asses.

Even Soraya forewarned our manager that only a small core of us are

pulling our weight and also carrying others and we've had enough. 

Manager trying to suss who to get names but Soraya was all "noo I'm not dobbing ppl in"

while I'm next to her using my fingers to count the dropkick names in my head lmaooo
Anyways I finally emailed my manager

that I want to decrease from fulltime hours to work 2 days a week

lfggggg HAHAHA

Manager was not happy, trying to negotiate it to 3/4 days and asking me 
"what's gonna happen to this place then?" like bruuuuuhhh
I warned you/voiced my complaints and also not my circus, not my clowns.

A few of my workmates in disbelief that I've decreased my hours that much

but I think it's time with everything that's happening. 

I wanna keep my peace and not be constantly pissed at the dumbasses I work with HAHAHA

I think I need this to look at facilitating or NDIS job 

more seriously because I know I will make hella excuses when I'm doing fulltime shift work. 

Pushing Vicky to join me in starting NDIS business together hehe

Her telling me that I'm brave and there's me saying I just need to budget better

nekminnit planning a japan trip with my degens ggs

It's not korea but I'll take any winter-ish place over south east asia humidity tbh


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Dude said he was bored without saying it

so I said okayyy lemme make this walk by the bay more spicyyy
Roasted him a little too hard that he got upset tho LOOOL

 "don't tell me you're a sensitive ass bish?"

"sorry your sensitive ass feelings got hurt"


💀💀



Turns out I am the toxic one
lmao
My cousin could not deal with me and my backhanded apologies

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After talking to Moisty and Tash

made me realise I've maybe subconsciously been keeping 

him and the whole relationship at arms length...

Had another serious chat and was more firm about 

how I do not want to compromise on my thing because I knowww

I will definitely resent my partner later on and his response be as fluffy as last time. 

Appreciate his honesty and answer being as true as it can be in the present sense
but also feels like we're back at square one.
Reassured me that "this relationship just feels right" and
I'm just here thinking glad one of us feels that way lel. 

Asked that he thinks about his answer more seriously, either he makes peace with 

what I've decided or we just breakup because I'm not wasting more time

if this issue is just gonna crop up later on.
Trust me to suggest "maybe we should take a break so you can 

think about it more clearly" which got a quick no 😬


Not delilah telling me to give him a deadline 

to stress him out a little lmao




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