Can't believe Jap is just 3 days away

and finally meeting up with the Aussie korner krew again

😭😭

And actually cannot believe nobody's done anything for the itinerary besides Delilah

 ggs guess we're all just winging it




and trust me to stir the pot with him a little more before leaving-

why am I so toxic HAHA

♥

Big backsss

Not this girl trying to convince me to do 

5am classes with her 

She'll be asking me to sign up 

to do Hydrox with her soon enough rip


♥

Can't believe you managed to say

all the right things and I was so ready

for you to hear my spiel. 
Guess you're not so clueless afterall

what am I meant to do with all this

pent up aggression HAHAHAA


Even bought me a book

to help smooth things over 😳



♥

Youchube ; Hayd - Head in the clouds

♥

Just when I thought I was more sure about things,

you go and throw a wrench in it. 

Honestly, what a mess. 


Got so annoyed/upset I just had to distance myself a bit

cos I don't want to get triggered and make rash decisions. 


Not him spiraling and calling to check in 
and apologising continuously. 

😭😭
why am I living the dramallama

♥

Me back doing A/CNC for 3 weeks 😭
At least I can earn back what I've splurged the past few months ggs

My asian colleague asking if I lost weight or something cos I look different,

then my manager chimes in saying she was gonna say something last week

that I do look a lot better these days and begrudgingly says

it's probably my part time life 

HAHAHAHA

Watch me lose that part-time lyfe glow this week

from all the stress haha

♥

The weekend roadtrip was not bad, 
probably turned out better than my expectations. 

I only got triggered once 😂

and of course it was abundant green flags. 

DnM and confession time was unfortunately not as juicyy


Overall probably a 8/10

congrats I didn't get sick of you in 48hrs haha
things did get a little out of hand at the end though


When I got home I couldn't shake this feeling of

a heaviness in my chest.
It left me restless and confused why I was feeling so. 

Notsure if it's a push to have a serious talk 

or just me trying to self-sabotage 


♥

Been absolutely blessed and showered with love in August

🥰🥰

Some of the highlights (mostly food dumps HAHA)

Shoutoutzz to Thrizza for getting me tix hehe

Can't believe we trekked to Melb for that one restaurant HAHA

Shopped like craaaazy tho ggs

♥

Youchube ; Fiji Blue - Waves

 

♥

Got invited to see the grandprix 

in melb next March

but my first thought was "not sure if I'm gonna still be 

in your life next March" 💀💀


After a long dnm with my cousin on Sunday,

I planned to have the chat the same night

but then again it was green flags galore ggs

guess I'm gonna save the convo for the weekend staycation trip

how fun

no way to escape lmaooo


♥

 2k in a day

chill out pls 

I'm glad we were able to say goodbye

before the option was ripped from us.

Our pieces had stopped fitting long before our goodbyes,
the edges frayed from us-or me trying so hard to hold on.
Clinging tight to the buoy ring that was
stupidly secured to the sinking ship, our past.

Some days I'm resentful about the space 

you took up in my life. 

The extra baggage I need to check-in

and sometimes even caught off guard about the ones

I hadn't declared- unaware of its existence, 

until I'm forced to face it.  


Other days I feel numb when I think about 

you,

us,

the past.



♥

Ritty's friend self-invited himself to the trip

HAHAHAHAHA

It's like Anton all over again. 

Duuude better start doing arm's day cos

 he's gonna be carrying my luggage fosho 

👀

♥

I'm homesick for a time that no longer exists




♥

Youchube ; The XX - Sunset

what a throwback



♥

Still having doubts about us

 

but whenever I feel like I wanna end things,

 I see green flags 💀 

It's not supposed to be this hard right

I said "peak comedy" 

and the universe did me one better.

Recounted the date to like 5 other people 

and they just be laughing their asses off.

Even managed to shock Tanya into laughing 

😭😭
Swear I have the worst luck

but I guess I'm glad you guys are all having a gas about it



♥

Not the friend who crashed out on me a few months ago

asking me if I'm still mad 

and if we could get coffee sometime


BISHHHHHHH

can't believe you ruined our friendship 

just for you to do a 180

like that wasn't gonna be a dealbreaker

guys are weird

Also fomo for you cos you missed out on peak comedy 

that was my last few months ggs

♥

Yo

guyssss chill pls
 

You scrolling too far back 💀

and who the fooooook is on an ipod touch.

Out yourselves now!

We felt like a lifetime ago.

It's getting harder to remember things. 

Our past is all but a blur.

Echoes of ghosts.



Maybe that's why I still find it hard to talk about us...



♥

DnM with the aussie korner group chat

made me realise I really be the guy in this relationship LOL

ramz and I be like give ussss spaaaace

workmates already making fun of me and 

my "once a week meetup only" limit


And then there's delilah all "I want to live in his skin"
lmfaooooo


I cannot with her


Also not me telling him that I'm so excited

for his upcoming phils trip and asking why he didn't

go for longer 💀


♥